Right or Wrong

    Is it wrong to want someone you know you will never get ? Or is it wrong to feel as if you will NEVER get it ? I mean I know they say never say never, but it's just certain things you know will just never happen, right ?

        You know the moment when you meet someone for the first time, and you've felt like you've known them forever ? It's like just an instant click !!! You guys talk about everything over the phone, or over text messages, but when ya'll see each other in person it's like you instantly tense up, you feel the butterflies wings flying in your stomach at full speed, then an instant heat wave flushes your cheeks, and your mind goes blank so the only thing you can do is smile.  Well, thats the feeling I get every time I see this guy. I'll introduce him to you guys as "Coolio". 


In my eyes Coolio was the best guy in the world. A lot of females liked him, but for some reason, I don't think they saw what I saw when I looked into his eyes. when I looked into his eyes, I saw a whole new world, a whole new life. It was as if I saw his soul. ( Just a strong metaphor for saying I saw him for who he really was ). We had what you might call a "Flirtationship" lol.  But, we were friends before anything We had a really strong friendship and thats something that doesn't come too often.

We always conversed, we always shared some of the best laughs together, but it's like as we got older our friendship became weird. we would go from talking everyday, to not talking at all for months, and it has been on and off like that still to this day. sometimes I sit back and wonder why ? There's a few thoughts that come to my mind, but the main one is "I'm most likely not his type". There's absolutely nothing wrong with that, but one thing i miss the most is the friendship we had.

Sometimes I sit back and wonder if there's someone out there crushing on me the same way you know. I wonder if i'd been ignoring them the same way. Have you ever wondered why people always want things that we can't have?

You know what I've learned ? It's hard to wait on something that you know might not ever happen, but it's even harder to give up when you know it's everything you want.

Unfortunately for me i've already given up because I just don't know what I want anymore.